anywaes..on another note.
still not feeling very upbeat about life. there's just this fear tugging the strings of my sub conscious mind.
the fear of losing
the fear of running
the fear of committing
rUn aWay babY...
keep on running
keen on leaving
do a sprint
or a marathon
in circles along this straight route
one day you'll come to realise
that you are back here again
but things will no longer be the same
changes have taken place
alone and weary
despondent feelings take root
life seems to be such a big joke
a tease you proclaim
unable to take it
you pick up and run...
it's overpowering at times. especially in the nights.. drowning me in the bottomless pit...just falling...caught up in its weB, i just can't seem to free myself.. and the anguish pierces my heart...making it ache as i dwindle into nothingness.
i try to keep up with appearances.. cheery and gAy. but one day i'll stumble...and with tears streaming down my face...i'll pick up my feet and run...
however, i'm determined this time i'll change. i will find the reason(s) for my existence. i will change my fate. there is strength beneath and i'll be damned if i let others get to me.
thoughts whirl in my mind. decisions lie paved...it's now time to choose my path.
i'm currently abiding...waiting...for the right opportunity to arise..on which i'll pounce and close a chapter of my life as yet another door is opened...
on a brighter note. just don't take my words too seriously as this is not all there is to me. only a side...
tInkerdOll
Thursday, January 08, 2004
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