i'm home at last.
the past three days have been like a whirl... almost as if they didn't exist or something that occured in my sleep.
throughout it all.. i experienced varying emotions.
the bad and the good. anger, stress, burnt out, lonliness, joy, hyper mood and also a sense of achievement.
have i done a good job and was i competent is not really something i can gauge. i just do things to the best of my capability and hope that it's the best way round.
there were unhappiness felt but to you people, some things i say, i might do it at the heat of the moment. and if i said/done anything to hurt u.
i truly, solemnly apologise.
but the fact remains that as much as i want to please everyone.. it's simply NOT possible.
i feel left out and alone. trapped in a world i cannot escape from...
and the feeling of that comes especially strong when inside jokes are shared.. i understand that bonding comes with contact. and i am restricted to such luxury.
what i find sad is that, everyone just seems to be rushing away.
there seems to be no time left to care.
i cried today. out of pain, out of burden.
when will there be a time where we learn to step in the shoes of others and see the world through their eyes.
i'm tired now. and that might be an explanation for the downturn of moods.
tmr i'll write again, this time with all that i am grateful to have received.
for any offences, i'm sorry...i just
need to rant.
tInkerdOll
Sunday, June 06, 2004
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